It's So Close Now!

I am very excited now!!
I'm going to sit for the last paper for this semester at 9am tomorrow!!
The exam is going to finish at 12.40pm (including reading time and entext student extra time)!
I'm so so so excited that I can't wait anymore!

Anyway, my apartment internet connection will terminate on 30 Nov, and I won't be able to online until I reach home. I think I will be able to online once in a while though. A lot of plans are running in my mind now: shopping, parties, and packing...

I cant wait to taste delicious and ORIGINAL Penang food!!! Yummy~

My home sweet home...

Curry mee - My favourite!


Char koay teow - Second on my list

chee cheong fun

And of course, A LOT MORE!!!

And I'm going to sleep now. Good night! Haha...

宁静中的波涛汹涌

偶然机遇下，让我想出的这么一句话。
怕输，我想是人之常情吧。或多或少每个人都有一点点怕输的成份，毕竟我们都是有情众生。
自私，我想也是一样的。
但是，最让人无法接受的是怕输又自私的人刻意把缺点隐藏起来，让人觉得她是世界上最伟大的人。确实，我觉得有些人隐藏的功力还蛮不赖的，如果不是真的深处久了，都不会发现原来身边有这么一种人。正如古人所说：“路遥知马力，日久见人心”，不管在日常生活中再怎么掩饰，也会有露出马脚的时候。
如果刻意把自己隐藏起来，刻意讨好对他有利的人，简直就是个假惺惺的活人。这种人活得不自在，虚伪而且对生命也不诚恳。
士风日下，人心不古，世间上到底有多少个宁静中的波涛汹涌？

因为你 因为我

爱像一首歌 唱尽世间的感动
心就像天空 可以无限的宽阔
用双手 编织梦

就让一切因为你 因为我
感觉都更不同
就让一切因为你 因为我
世界充满更多 爱的感动

爱就像山峰 望向世界的尽头
心就像灯火 照亮黑暗的角落
不沉默 无保留

就让一切因为你 因为我
感觉都更不同
就让一切因为你 因为我
世界充满更多 爱的感动

Cheers

Suddenly, I feel so old...
I was reading through my old posts in January and February and I realised that I actually "produced" quite a number of posts in the past. In fact, it is nice to keep a blog and to record the happenings in your life.

Why blog?
So that in the middle of your journey through life, (when you are bored, when you are down or when you need reminiscence) you can stop and look back. Nonetheless, the good old memories can give you strength to pursue further. At some point, I assure you that you will definitely laugh away with what you were thinking or doing at that time. (But there was no way you could laugh at that particular time.)

Can you imagine that I'm someone who is going to sit for exam tomorrow?
She should be busy revising, at least. BUT, look at what she had been doing for the past few days: she was badly addicted to a game called "Cooking dash" and she can spend hours playing the game. This is a fact - when exams draw nearer and nearer, I will have lesser and lesser mood to study and I will be thinking of post-exam plans rather than the current "headache".

I was feeling rather irritated when Jetstar rang in the morning to inform me about a five minutes delay of my flight. I was still sleeping... Zzz

Come on,
What the body does to drug?
What drug does to the body?
Absorption
Distribution
Elimination
Australian Health Care System - National Medicine Policy, Pharmaceutical Benefit Scheme, Medicare, Pharmacy Guild, PSA, TGA........... WHY are there so many organisations and policies???

Stay cool and good luck!!~

Pre-Exam

Yesterday was hot, but today is even hotter.
I went for a jog in the evening yesterday but it didn't turn well.
Usually I will jog all the way along Torrens river but I didn't do that for yesterday.
It was too hot, and the air was too dry that I can hardly breathe.
Now I realise the cons of staying in a seasonal country. During winter, it will be too cold for outdoor activities and during summer, you will get sun burn if you expose your skin for too long under the sun. I wonder how they can actually sunbathe on the beach... This is just... impossible for me.
I had a short trip to Gleneg a few days ago and guess what, my complexion has darken one tone and there is a clear distinct between areas covered wif clothes and those without.

Exam is just just just around the corner.
The best part comes after exam. I'm heading home!!!

**I am craving for food, besides being addictive to chocolates.**

只要心还透明 就能折射希望

期待著彩虹 所以开了窗
窗外只有灼热闪光
所谓的彩虹 不过就是光
只要心还透明 就能折射希望

宁愿重伤也不愿悲伤
让伤痕变成了我的徽章
刺在我心脏 永远不忘
默默让著旋律 和我心交响
至少在我的心中 自己为自己鼓掌

每个孤独天亮 我都一个人唱
默默的让著旋律 和我心交响
就算会有一天 没人与我合唱
至少在我的心中 还有个尚未崩坏的地方

Savouring Notes

I'm so bored with the routine I need to follow - so many lecture notes to study.
Obviously my body hasn't been doing good at distributing sufficient amount of blood to my brain.
I'm extremely sleepy yet I have no choice but to continue studying.
My brain refuses to think but I have no extra time to slack.
I need to motivate myself, go go go!!!

Keep it up, it's just one month away to freedom!! Everything that I dislike - people, place, etc. will be washed away from me!!!

I Don't Care~

We meet all kinds of people in our lives
some are nice friends
while some are just intolerable

There are people who bang the door like mad
and get angry just because of tiny stuffs
Get it clear people
Nobody is your slave!!
Once is okay, twice is still acceptable but thrice is like "Oh, again?"
And if that continues for many many times,
I have no comment.

Anyway, we can't control what others are going to do
but we can control our hearts
Don't be affected because I DON'T CARE!!!
Most importantly, we have the vision to see who they really are. ^^

I Make Steamed Buns!

Finally, after a long long long time talking about it. Haha...
^^

Grasping for Air

Tired, hot and bored by the fact "I have no choice but to study".
Please, please don't hit 37 degree Celsius today. (It 's 34 now)
If it does, does it mean that my body temperature and the environment are homogenized? Haha...
I think my body's ADH is doing a good job in water retention or I will be dehydrated.
Believe or not, I have an assignment dues on next Thursday but I haven't write anything yet.

Human

If ever I am presented with a question, there will be three possible responses:
Yes, no or I'm not sure.

Yes: Means I want something, or rather my view is more towards the particular direction

No: Means I prefer not to

I'm not sure/ Anything possible: It's a nicer way to say "whatever". It's either I have no comment on that matter or I don't care to comment. Get it?

The idea of being not assertive is someone who changes his/ her mind in split seconds. In short, it is being represented by the Chinese phrase "人云亦云".

Sometimes I just don't understand why humans see others' weaknesses but not theirs. I'm not hinting that I'm perfect anyway, I do have weaknesses. From time to time, I encounter situations where A is speaking ill about B but A himself has the same problem. Also, there are times when you meet people who will never accept their weaknesses. Orally they may say "Oh really? Ok ok, I will pay more attention to that in the future" but in their heart they are filtering out what you just said thinking "Ah, she is just too demanding" and repeats the same mistake again. On the other hand, there are also people who talk without processing what they say in their brains. *Reflective reaction perhaps*

The moral of the story: When you are pointing at someone, please remember that there are four other fingers pointing back at you. (I have four fingers pointing back at me now, *hit*)

Up!

Nice nice day, my mood has changed, if you noticed that. =D

Previously, there were a number of emo posts and I was so tired with life, with people and with studies. But at least now, I found motivation to pursue life, hopefully, with much enthusiasm. Most probably, it is due to the fact that I finally managed to solve a problem deep in my heart.

I know I have been keeping quiet for many occasions, and really, it's time to turn over a new leaf. I have always been a quiet person, yet I turned into a even more quiet person, which was unbelievably scary. I know that I need a change.

Come on, cheers!

A Few Weeks Back

I learned dispensing! (In fact I learned it a few weeks ago =P)

The first time I dispensed Paracetamol Tablets 500mg to "Mr Tom Riddle" while the second time I dispensed Amoxycillin Syrup 250mg/ 5ml to "Miss Hermione Granger" and Hydrocort Cream 1%, 50g to "Ms Ginevra Weasely". Printing the labels was fun but unfortunately I don't have the pictures with me right now.

At the same time, I was being exposed to pharmacy terms such as p.r.n. which means "when required". I'm so eager to get hold of a copy of APF (whichever edition it is).

Actually, I have always been tensed attending Pharmaceutics classes. The lecturers are stern and they are always strict. I guess the only motivation that drives me forward is dispensing. =D But in fact, dispensing is not as easy as I thought. For instance, you need to check the dosage with reference to the age and weight of the patient; even direction can be hard sometimes when preciseness is important.

The weather is becoming hot, so hot that I feel reluctant to walk under the skin-burning sun. I want to visit Botanic Garden!! There would definitely be plenty of beautiful flowers and plants!

Let time flow back to the mid sem break:

I couldn't remember every bit of my mid sem break but the most significant event that I joined was Rushi Children camp, as a helper. The camp was held at a scout camping site at Rymill Centre, Woodhouse. Woodhouse is quite a big place, originally built for scouts but it is available for rent. The surrounding was EXTREMELY peaceful and serene and no doubt, I love the place! Generally, the helpers are divided into groups including activity, art and craft, dharma and cooking. And yes, I'm in dharma! It was a great experience to be in dharma. =D The names of the groups for children were based on 四摄法, while there were some teachings on 十善业。It was great to see a group of young people interested in Buddhism and Chinese! And I feel ashamed for not mastering Chinese well.

I should start writing in English more frequently for I can sense that my writing skills are deteriorating with pauses here and there, searching for suitable words in my mind.

*Exams in approximately one month's time. Obviously I should start working now...*

Another One

I think I have had enough of emo post yesterday. But sometimes it's weird, the feeling just comes back although you tried hard to fight it off.

I'm just, ahh... Forget about it. I think it's not a good idea to stay alone at this time. I should find something else to do.

Look At The Brighter Side

Do you know that:
It's stupid to be unhappy just because of a person you don't like.
It's ridiculous to be worried about something you couldn't control.
It's laughable to cling to the past.

No matter how sad you are, no matter how unhappy you can be, you can't change the fact. But I don't understand, why am I getting frustrated everytime I encounter something which doesn't go my way. Of course, I am aware that nothing is perfect, I know that I don't have control over everything in life. Life's not a drama, I can't fast forward, nor can I rewind. But why? Why do I get irritated so often? And yes, I'm annoying myself and the one by my side.

I want to change. I have been repeatedly telling myself to be more optimistic, to have more confidence and courage, to choose wisely and to ponder mindfully but what I get in the end is just a word "fail". In fact, what I need to do is simple, I need to 放下. Realising that the main cause of all my toubles roots from the fact that I have been too 执著, I seriously need a makeover.

Sometimes, things are fated. What belongs to you will be yours, and things that do not belong to you will not be yours. Nonetheless, it's just a slight change in thinking which will give way to a brighter tomorrow. It's just a small alteration yet it can really make a BIG DIFFERENCE!

Before typing this post, I was feeling rather emotional. I know I have been creating too much troubles as a result of being too sensitive and demanding. I know it's getting irritating. As I typed, I began to calm down and as it gets to the end, I'm feeling much better, really. I am just who I am, be confident. Please remind me if I forget to strive for what I want.

Decision

Maybe I think too much
Perhaps I am worried for the unseen future
Decisions are hard to make
Or I should say there is no choice
Too many things need to be taken into consideration
No one understands.
Do you?

I Smell Spring!

Now I can picture the scene of flowers blossoming, sunglasses and beaches!!! The weather has been reasonably spring-like since last week. Obviously, the colour of the street is changed: from dark gloomy black to colourful rainbow, and most importantly, there is no need for super thick clothings and scarves!

This blog needs a change too. There shouldn't be any more moody posts for the time being. (I'm sorry if I do in the future. =P)

I love spring!!~ Oh no, I can't wait for the holidays to come!!!

Coming plans:
Mooncake festival
Amazing race
Picnic at Glenelg

Weekend

Spent all day long at Wayville for Royal Adelaide Show. Ever wonder what it is?

"The Royal Adelaide Show is South Australia's biggest annual event run by the Royal Agricultural and Horticultural Society of South Australia.

There are gourmet food and wine tastings; entertainment with bands, dancing, comedy acrobatics; exhibitions and displays; fashion parades; competitions; animals (livestock and pets); a farmyard nursery and animal petting area, and more.

Enjoy carnival rides, sideshows, exhibitions and attractions, exquisite handicraft and arts, cookery and wide variety of champion livestock and animals. It is at the show that rural South Australia and city businesses alike can showcase their best produce, wares and services."

The above description is cited from somewhere on the net. As for me, the show displays everything you can find in Australia: from animals to vegetables; from drawings to cake decoration. A few interesting ones are milking cows, pig racing and pig diving etc. (I couldn't remember, saw too many things...) What else? Hmm... I also visited Prison Break Live. Nothing special though, the effects are created using lights and there are a few "prisoners" scaring people in the maze. Now, this is the final and the most interesting event of the day - fireworks!! Despite the cold weather and little clothings I had, I still enjoyed the show. =)

That was Saturday. Sunday was muscle stretching day. We played badminton at Magill campus in the morning, and I sweated a lot!! It was really a contented play. Now I think it's worth to sacrifice Harbour Town for badminton. Anyway, I will definitely go to Harbour Town on some other day. Haha...

Now it's time to stay focus............ and STUDY!!!

*Spring is coming!!~*No more cold shivering night and there is sunlight!!*

Updates

A totally annoyed week so far.
I had Chemistry test on Monday, which I don't think will turn out to be very well.
Flu symptoms since last Friday started to develop: sore throat, headache, runny nose, and finally irritating cough. T.T
I guess it's due to the weather that many people get sick nowadays.
I am wondering whether I should wake up early for Bio lecture in the morning, I'm so lazy...
Anyway, I can still attend the lecture on Friday if I do not attend the one on tomorrow, I'm not skipping class. =P
I have enormous emotional change lately. Sigh.
What else?
Oh yeah, I'm going to Royal Adelaide Show this Saturday, which burns away AUD12.60 from my pocket. And I'm planning a visit to Harbor Town on Sunday, besides badminton in the morning. Full load again. XoXoXo
To some extent, I'm still left out. Didn't keep up to date in the lectures yet.
Good news, I'm nearer to Malaysia, to Penang!!!

Days

Pharmaceutics is a complete devastation. No further comment on that. It makes me wonder, is Pharmacy my cup of tea?

I just don't understand why. Although I was rather nervous and I think the first half of my paper was initially a ruin, I thought I managed to check back and changed. I don't know what was I doing yesterday, I just couldn't concentrate on the calculation. Wouldn't it be too fast to give me a 'death sentence'?

Anyway, it's just a sad sad day. I don't like today. Say no no to Thursday and Friday. Monday and Wednesday are long days. Thursday marks the coming of Friday and Friday, I have no reason to like it. Saturday and Sunday should be a relieve, but they will never be.

Th@nk You...

Finally, the first number of my age changes. (Don't ask what is my age la... Girls, paiseh ma...=P)

Special thanks to:
Yi Hong - "Slept" at 11pm huh? I thought I would ignore you the next day if you really slept at 11pm. Haha... Also, thanks for keeping me company the whole day, and the lunch. But you, ruined my mood half way. Hng! But since you did so many things for me, ok la, I will forget about it. =P

Zhi Hui, Hooi Lie, Michelle - Thanks for the cake and the first surprise. Err, when did David Foster uploaded the calculation tutorial and where is it?

Amreet, Kiing, Siew Mei, Pei Pei - Thanks for baking the cake, a nice one! =)

Chuen Lu - Thanks for the chocolate.

Valerine - The green pants is really cool. Haha...

Sie Ching, Jia Yi, Jenny, Chuen Lu, Kiing, Siew Mei, Pei Pei, Amreet, Xin Yee, Shin Yin, Kelly, Jien, Yi Hong, Michelle, Hooi Lie, Zhi Hui - Thanks for sacrificing your beauty sleep at night. It's great having every one of you here!

Jien (a.k.a. papa), Jeremy, Amreet, Pei Pei, Siew Mei, Kiing, Jenny, Jia Yi, Sie Ching - The present is really awesome, thanks a lot!

Last but not least, thanks for all the wishes and thanks for remembering my birthday. I really appreciate it. =)
It'll never be the same without you guys!

PS: There is no sequential meaning with the names.

Too Special

PENANG: The state government has declared a public holiday on Tuesday (26th August 2008) “to ensure a full turnout of voters for the critical Permatang Pauh by-election”, Chief Minister Lim Guan Eng said (TheStar 2008).

However, I'm in Australia, not Malaysia. And I encounter two contrasting situations:
Penang: By election and PUBLIC HOLIDAY.
Adelaide: Pharmaceutics calculation test on Wednesday, Statistic practical test on Thursday and Chemistry test the following Monday.

In conclusion, it will be a hectic week from this week till next Monday.

Reference:
TheStar 2008, 'By-election: public holiday for Penang', viewed 24 August 2008, <http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/8/24/nation/20080824170219&sec=nation>.

After 20 Years...

Just a random thought. It's 105 days away from 05122008 - the day I'm going back to Malaysia!! I couldn't believe it. It feels so fast as the day when I first arrived in Adelaide was like yesterday. Out of sudden, memories fly into my mind.

The day I received JPA's letter gave me smiles and tears. Smiles, for I know I am finally being granted the chance to study overseas. Tears, for I know I will be leaving home, a place where I was brought up for the past 18 years. My hometown is filled with memories, good and bad alike. There, I learned how to speak and write for the very first time. I fell, and I got up time after time. I cry, I laugh, I frown and I smile.

At times, I thought of giving up, I wanted to run back home. But there is a force which keeps me going all these while - I want a change, and I want to achieve something by myself.

Now, seven months have gone. I have been here for seven months and of course, started to get used to the life here. Cooking, groceries and studies... Nonetheless, living on my own has taught me great lessons about life and people.

From the day I start to learn:
Water is a transparent liquid.
All living things need water to survive.
Water makes up 70-75% of our total body weight.
Water is make up of two hydrogen atoms and one oxygen atoms.
Covalent bonds hold the elements together to form water.
Water molecules are held together by hydrogen bonds.

And recently, water can feel and form different crystals. It may be just a coincidence, it may be a myth but I choose to believe, do you?

Heart Dissection vs Pharmaceutics

Everyday has been busy. Being loaded with lectures and tutorials gives me nothing but work. Well, besides knowledge perhaps.

Last week, I had a sheep's heart dissection. Before the dissection, I NEVER had a chance to operate on such yucky thing before, not even a full chicken. So this can be considered as the first time I handed something like this, with gloves of course. My first impression towards the heart was: It Stinks!!! Cold and sticky... Next, I will leave the story telling job to the pictures below.

Before the dissection, we (I and my lab partner) tried to identify the major arteries and veins of the heart and of course, the ventral and dorsal regions of the heart.

Now, let's get started. We began the dissection from the dorsal region, making the cut through left atrium and left ventricle parallel to the interventricular septum. The above picture shows me holding the heart after the cut. It was amazing to me that the tiny valve can actually hold on to such a large amount of pressure. It did not tear off although I tried hard pulling them apart.

I had a pharmaceutical mock test just now. It was a mere 20 minutes test but I started to doubt my ability to complete all the questions in time. For those who do not know, it was a test involving general mathematical calculation to determine the amount of drug to be given to the patient at right concentration. In short, it was another form of more complicated Mathematics test. The most cruel part of the test is - no mark will be awarded to workings if the answer is wrong. Reason: Making a mistake while prescribing can be disastrous, and it cannot be undone by all means.

I should stop now.

^^

Of Parts And Pieces

In case if any of you wonder what happened to my previous posts, I would say that so far it was the hardest week in Australia for me. Although I haven't fully recovered yet, I hope the memory will be washed away as time passes by. I will think of it in this way: peaks and troughs are essence of life, and they are the things that make life interesting. *If you haven't already known, please don't ask. Not because I don't want to tell, I just don't know how to tell.*

Looking at the brighter side, I'm happy for there are still people who wish to be my listener when I need them. The darker side would be, the same old feeling is making its way back. Being leftout, being alone, I feel like shutting myself against the rest of the world again. To be exact, it was nobody's fault. If ever there was someone to be blamed, I would be the first in the list. Arghhh, this is so stupid. I'm NOT going to ruin myself anymore. Be strong!!! And say goodbye to fragility!

They say rainbow comes after the rain. But after the rainbow, there is rain again. It's like a repeating process without an end. And it's going to go round and round, haunting me again and again for uncountable days and months. Where is my old self? Where is the once courageous and strong girl? Neither tears nor words could solve the problem. And the only solution arises from the heart. Happiness is not far away, it's in your heart.

Life is growing hectic. Test is coming and I haven't study much yet. This week I did something disgusting - dissecting a sheep's heart. Nothing much to say but the only thing I could remember well is the stinking smell of blood in the lab. Got to stop here. Wish me luck.

Race

Feeling rather tired after one whole day of race,
I'm physically still but mentally moving.
My mind, my heart and my effectors,
they are not doing me favour
as intuition and conscience act differently.

I know the way:
It is to think mindfully.
I know this is not right,
yet I'm trapped in my own web.
I envy, I jealous
and I wonder why.
I'm so going to ruin myself.

WHY?

Why the problems?
Why the troubles?
Why?????!!!

I can't do anything.
My mind is out of control.
It feels like every part of my body is not coordinating.

I want to run.
Run to a place where there are no THEM.
And yes, you are right, I am not calm.

I Walk

I walked

along the quiet corridor

where there was no one else except me.

I walked

down the crowded street

where I jostled my way to the end.

I began my journey

with something stuck in my heart

I reached my destination

with the pieces of memory remains in my heart

and it remains

for it will be there

and it seems to be

forever.

I Dissected An Earthworm!

First Bio prac in this sem, first dissecting experience, and first time being scolded for plagiarising. =.=

First Bio prac: Remember my lab coat and covered shoes so that I won't be punished to wear coat of shame and "trendy" white boots.

First dissecting experience: While reading through the lab manual, I imagined how yucky it will be to operate a worm. Silently, I thought of leaving the dissecting work to my lab partner. =P BUT... What is the point of attending the prac without dissecting the worm???? In the end, I decided to try it out myself. *Applause to myself* Hahaha... Here is how I went through the whole process: Identifying the dorsal surface, cut through the body wall, pinned the cut edges... Surprisingly, I didn't touch the worm, not even once!!!
To the pity worm: Sorry and I had tried my best not to destroy your body parts.

First time being scolded for plagiarising: So far this is the first time I was running out of time to complete my write-up report in the lab. Eventually, I resorted to copying the labels from my friend. This is how it happened:
*tap tap*
(Somebody tapped on my shoulder.)
Me: (Turning my head over, I saw the demonstrator, which will then be represented as Mr. S. Sensed that something was not right, I didn't say anything.)
S: What are you doing here? Are you from this table? Do you know that it's not right to copy your friend's work?
Me: ......

ME vs YOU

Where is my spirit?
Where is my determination?
Where is my motivation?

I need to recover my confidence and enthusiasm for everything. For now, I tend to leave the crowd and be alone. Sometimes the feeling is just indescribable. I had a series of emotion flow since early of this year. When I reached here, everything was perfectly new and interesting. Thus, I had never been tired of outings and activities. Gradually, I feel bored. Bored with what? Or who? I'm still trying to figure out. Consequently, I prefer to stay away from people and activities. This sounds so pessimistic. =(

And I'm here trying to confront... Where are my spirit, determination and motivation?

This is just the beginning of the semester. And I always feel that I have lots of things to cover. From Biology to Chemistry, from calculation to communication, they seem to be... A LOT. I know I should be studying right now but I just couldn't help it, especially when I'm holding the notes on skeleton. I was the latest to wake up today, and I'm still wasting time here. There are many hardworking people out there. They study before the beginning of the semester, and wow... They seem to be very fast. Do I lose my track or are they too fast? I thought I should read with pleasure and study for my own knowledge. And yes, it's true.

Humans talk. But they talk when they are not you. They say that they are angel and you are the devil. How would they know that what they say are perfectly concordance with what you think? They make you their slaves while they are the king and queen. The reality of life is like that, but sometimes I wonder, at this stage of life, are there king and queen? Or we are just equal? Maybe this is what we call pride. Attempting to lead a normal life, with pride and flattery blossoming around me, do I equal to them or do I stand on my own? Sometimes I also wonder, am I just like one of them? (Just that I do not realise.)

Continuation Of Uni Life

It has been one week since uni reopened. A few days before uni reopened, I actually looked forward to it. (I know this may sound a little unbelievable.) Anyway, I know it is time to buckle up and concentrate on my studies before assignments and lecture notes pile up on my table.

So far, the first week had been busy for me although there weren't any tutorial or practical. I guess this was partly due to the fact that most of us were still in holiday mood. *I watched The Dark Knight on Thursday.* The real heroes is not the one who present themselves in front of the stage but the one who sacrifices himself for the good of the others.

Last but not least, the highlight of this week is Malaysian Carnival 2008. As usual, there are Malaysian food, Malaysian culture shows etc. etc. The event was held at Elder Park. I like Torrens river!!! It's green, peaceful, calm and FREEEE!!!

Rushi Youth Camp

When most of my friends were away to Melbourne, I joined Rushi Youth Camp. Initially, I signed up for the camp for I thought holidays would be quite boring since there's nothing much to see or visit in Adelaide. Besides that, I guess it would be a good chance for me to know more about Buddhism while enjoying the camp.

Honestly, I didn't put in much hope for the camp as it was a small camp with as few as 20 participants. However, I guess this would be an advantage for the committee to come out with interesting yet meaningful activities as a small group of people was easier to be managed.

It was a 4 days 3 nights camp held at Zhu Lin Temple. The first day was kicked off with some "break-the-ice" activities so that all of us could mingle well with each other. Then, there was some introduction to basic principles in Buddhism. The day continued with station games and sitting meditation. Significantly, it made me realised that I had A LOT of wondering thoughts. In fact, the amount of wondering thoughts I had gave me a shock. I didn't sleep well at night as it was too coooold and I didn't have any experience in dealing with the coldness. (PS: after that I wore 5 layers of clothes at night =P)

Generally, day 02 was light and easy. We had Tea Zen and games. There was a game called Travel Around The World which I personally think that it was quite meaningful. I actually played this game at Botanic Garden outing. This game is best played with about 16-20 people and all players are divided into 4-5 groups. For each group, there are different rules for playing card games. While the game is running, everyone must remain silent. For each game, the winner will move to another group on the right while the loser will move the another group on the left and the game continues. The interesting part of this game is that the one who moves to another group doesn't know about the rules of the new group he or she is in. The aim of this game is to win as many times as possible by figuring out the rules of other groups. However, the underlying lesson of this game is to teach us to adapt to new environment by respecting others' culture. ^^

No doubt, we had many other interesting activities in the camp. One that is worth mentioning is Experience Night on day 03. It reminded us about the four things we need to undergo in life, birth, old, sickness and death. Also, it reminded us to appreciate what we have, and be thankful to the people around us. At most of the time, we tend to neglect and think that what we own are supposed to be there for us but we seldom realise that they do not necessarily need to be there. So, be grateful. =)

I think it's all for the camp. I know this post is kind of late anyway. =P

"Marathon"

It feels so fast, and now one week is gone!! So far, I spent my holiday visiting South Australia. Poor me, unlike most of my coursemates, I don't have any interstate plan =(

The holiday kicked off with Hooi Lie's birthday party. (Now I understand the hassle of hosting a party.) All of us were so busy with the food, venue and stuffs. Anyway, glad that it turned out to be a success and we had some leftover for the next few days. I guess I was the most delighted one as I don't need to worry about what to eat for lunch and dinner.

The next day was laundry day. You can never imagine it, we spent the whole day washing clothes! Thanks to the dearest exams, we hadn't been washing clothes for quite some time and our clothes piled up to 6 bags!

Moving on, it was time to release our stress and satisfy our "girlish nature" and hence our next destination --- Tea Tree Plaza. As an obedient + good girl, I didn't shop much. =P However, I believe that the main reason was that I had shopped too much before the exams and my pocket is seriously weeping now. Another new experience though, as Tea Tree Plaza is way different from the shopping malls in Malaysia. Unlike most shopping malls, Tea Tree Plaza consists of only three floors and most of the shops are located on the ground floor. Still the same old view, there aren't many skyscrapers in South Australia.

After that, we decided to visit Hahndorf. Hahndorf, situated in the Adelaide Hills, is a German settlement in South Australia. The most "interesting" part of our visit that I will never forget was the weather. It was a cold, windy and rainy day. The wind was so strong that you can feel yourself being "moved" by the wind and when it came together with the rain, it was freezing coooold! Before I forget, we visited some handicraft shops and a museum depicting the history of the German in South Australia. And of course, we didn't miss the chance to try out German food. Also, we visited Beerenberg errr... shop and Hahndorf Farm Barn. Beerenberg... shop visit was supposed to be a Beerenberg farm visit if it was spring. Too bad, when we reached the farm barn, it was almost the end of the visiting hours. However, we were so lucky that the keeper let us in for a hands on experience of feeding sheep with milk. Need not to say, it was sooooo exciting!!!

Read on, it is not the end yet. Haha... Alhough we were tired, there were still plans going on. After some discussion, we moved on to Cleland Wildlife Park the next day. There was no much difference between Cleland and other wildlife parks in Australia. Apparently, we saw kangaroos, wallabies, wombat, Dingos, Tasmanian Devils, koalas, water fowls and other reptiles. One of the lessons that I had learnt was wallabies are tamer than kangaroos. Haha...

After coming back from Cleland, we rested for one day. But I spent the morning hanging around at a charity food fair organised by Chuen Lu's church at Goodwood and the afternoon loitering around Rundle Mall. Zhi Hui had a friend visiting so we spent the night out for dinner with her friend.

Port Adelaide trip was generally a cruise trip to see dolphins. Apparently, the wind was strong too but I was growing smart to know what to wear nowadays. Haha... I will stop here for this moment. The activity coming up is a four-day-camp organised by Rushi Youth Group. ^^

Holiday

I can't believe it!!
Exam is OVER,
and holiday is HERE!!!

To someone:

Happy 1st month anniversary! =)

Anticipate

The last paper of this study period --- COMM is scheduled on tomorrow. And, it's one day left before I can shout out the three-word-phrase I AM FREE!!!!

After COMM, we will be busy preparing for Hooi Lie's birthday on Sunday. *I'm soooo looking forward to the post-exam-and-birthday-party!!* UV 1005 is the host this time. =P

Due to that, I'm seriously moodLESS to study. HELP!!!

Exams

One down, three more to go.
And yes, you are right. I am having exams.

Good luck guys. ^^

Bittersweet

I used to have dreams
and when they are achieved
I am delighted
and when they fail
I am grief-stricken

Life
is like a dish
a little sugary
coupled with a dash of vinegar
Sweet and sour alike

Finding the equilibrium point in life
is not as easy as solving a differential equation
There is no absolute answer to a question
neither alpha nor beta
for it is not a mathematical problem

Standing in between both extreme ends
figuring out the critical point
I'm searching for stability
looking out for the best for myself
Being aware of the naiveness in "me"
I strive to be wise
in dealing with people around me
although at some point
I realise that I'm ignorant

Doomed in the shade of darkness
I'm working hard
to find the source of light
It seems to be an impossible task
after years of wondering

Never did I realise that
the source of light is actually myself
Generating my own light
and radiating the heat
makes me grow and glow
I may not be a bright spark
but I will be a perpetuating candle
calm and warm

The wind can extinguish my light
but I have no fear
for the light can be revived
What life is for
if there are no pitfalls?

Success is defined
for there is failure
The rainbow can only be seen
after a downpour
We learn how to walk
from falls
We cherish sunshine more
after three month of winter

And I
appreciate life
for what it brings to me.

缘

记得中四老师曾经说过“缘”字的奇妙。当时他解释得相当清楚整个字的结构，好想从我那非常有限的记忆碎片中搜索，只可惜...还是不果。
基于无聊，随意在键盘上打了“缘”字，想看看是否能找到当年的解释。造字法的详细解释是没有，但却无意间发现一个不错的说法：

于千万人之中遇见你所遇见的人
于千万年之中，
时间的无涯的荒野里，
没有早一步，
也没有晚一步，
刚巧赶上了，
这就是缘分。
----红枫

释缘

问世间“缘”为何物？真叫人不好捉摸，因为无法诠释人与人相遇、相知、相交的底蕴和玄机，人们便认同并沿袭了禅语中拈出的那个字--缘

惜缘

在亿万年前的时光长河中相逢于今生今世；在芸芸众生的红尘人海中际会于此地此处，无论男女长幼，无论贫富美丑，这段尘缘足堪珍惜。

情缘

缘是天意，也关人情，盖因有情而后结缘，或有缘而后生情倘若无情，谈何有缘？即使有缘亦是孽缘。

随缘

人们常说随缘，但随缘不应是等缘。“有愿才会有缘，如果无愿即使有缘人也会成擦身而过。”极具禅心慧思的台湾作家林清玄如是说。

信缘 有这样一种朋友，也许相隔千山万水，也许分隔十年八载，世事变幻，沧海桑田，永远不变的是彼此心中的那份默契与牵挂。所以我相信，两缘若是久长时，又岂在朝朝暮暮。

悟缘

耳闻目睹曾经恩爱的夫妻因小事反目，曾经共同创业的朋友因为绳利成仇，颇感费解。思之再三，似有所悟：一切美好的姻缘都有三个支点方能长久-重情、守义、惜缘。

类缘

“有缘千里来相会”--这是空间上的缘。为什么数百年前，上千年前某人的思想、情怀、感悟会与我如此相似？为什么不曾谋面、不曾晤谈，心中竟是如此亲切，又是这样的喜欢？为什么月光像她的凝视，清风像她的呼吸？心有灵犀，千年相通--这是时间上的缘。

了缘

说不尽的缘，道不破的缘，了不断的缘，是缘，非缘，有缘，无缘，缘深，缘浅，缘起，缘灭。有人灰情灭欲，斩断情缘；有人藕断丝连，再续前缘；良缘变孽，仇缘变情缘。一面之缘与一生之缘或许在一念之间，或是情在缘已尽，或是缘在情已绝。。。。。这红尘中的是是非非，恩怨情仇，又怎是一个“缘”字了得！？

Randomness

Finally, I bought the FROGGY pyjamas I wanted to buy since a month ago!! Haha... Before that, don't put in too much hope because it's none other than normal pyjamas. BUT, it's reasonably priced and of acceptable quality.

So far I did not spend my study break wisely. Day 01 was spent outside: Friday after class outings and central market day. Day 02 was spent at the library. Haha, this sounds decent. Day 03 was spent... *Feel guilty about that*But okay la, one day only right?* Part of Day 04 was spent at Rundle Mall and part at UV, with books. Day 05, ie today, was spent at Rundle Mall, shopping. Well, our first intention was to pay our rent but it turned out to be a shopping trip. And yes, I bought stuffs. =P

Anyway, Cotton On was funny. I bought a five dollar skirt and the receipt was as long as though I bought 10 items. There isn't any wrong to print their refund policy in the receipt but hey, it was a sale item, which means that it is not exchangeable, I just don't understand why they did that. =S

And lastly, I couldn't help but to say thank you. Thank you for everything, thank you for turning up, giving me little surprises when I was down.

无题

第四年了......
@@@快乐......

Second Call

I was happily online yesterday when I saw my mum signed in MSN.
THEN, I was told that NS sent me a letter...
Funny enough, the letter was dated 15 May but it reached my home on 13 June. It took them almost one month to send the letter to me. T.T And I'm supposed to report at the camp on 16 June. Hahaha...
Instead of going to Langkawi, it's Balik Pulau this time, which is much closer to my house. And again, it's the same camp as KN's. Again and again, we are going to defer it. @@

A Story

This story was taken from an email. ^^

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger.

I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning.

I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears.

I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

NB*The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

Secret Revealed

An interesting last Chem lecture I had today. Haha... It wasn't about boring lecture but interactive tutorial questions!! By using a programme named "turning point" (I'm not sure of the name actually ^^), we had a massive revision. The questions were projected on the screen and we, ie. the students submitted our answers via a small rectangular gadget. Our answers will then be accepted by a receiver and the poll wil be displayed on the screen, together with the correct answer. Interesting right? Haha, I was trying to take a picture of the screen but due to my sitting position I couldn't possibly take a clear picture of the whole screen. =(

Guess what was the first question? Oops, I forgot to mention. Before that, sodium went missing in the first year lab and they were trying hard to locate the missing sodium. Finally, the sodium was found, and that was the first question:
Where was the missing sodium being found?
A. In Brian's lunchbox
B. In my pigeonhole
C. In H2-02
D. Something like dead duck in the river
E. I forgot... oOo
Haha... The choices available were funny.

Moving on, Dr. Sykes revealed the answer to a question MANY girls would like to know. So, the second question was: (teng teng teng teng!!) The year you were born in!!
Too bad he didn't give something like "what is your current status?" or "Am I married?"
XoXoXoX
Perhaps he doesn't want to hurt Zhi Hui. =P

That's all for today! My study break officially starts. *wink*

Random

Have been slacking for a few days,
poor concentration,
too much entertainment...
I can't possibly study with laptop on the table...
><

Have been thinking of a topic to blog nowadays,
but I'm running out of ideas...
Decided on something,
yet sometimes I question...
WHY?

I know I'm a doubtful person,
perhaps this is where the problem lies.
Shouldn't I be more open-minded,
and more confident?
+.+
Time will tell.

Celebrations

I just realised that I haven't been updating my blog as often as I did earlier this year. It's getting cold with winter just around the corner. Need not to mention, it feels even "cold" to be reminded that exam is coming. Anyway, I'm looking forward to the post-exam-holidays!!

After celebrating the triple birthday, we had a cycling trip to Henley Beach. *Sorry for the sequence, triple birthday celebration should come before cycling trip.* So yep, we celebrated Pei Pei, Jien and Amreet's birthday on Wednesday. We can see their surprise faces when cakes were taken out from the bedroom. Haha... Nonetheless, the surprise party was a succes and we had lots of fun although I had oral presentation on the next day. *A really special day*

On Monday, in conjunction with Queen's Birthday, Jien held a party at his apartment. *Another birthday celebration for himself. * The party was rather different from the previous ones as each "house" contributed a dish for the party. UV 1005 cooked lemon chicken and I'm proud to say that it was the FIRST to finish!! Haha... A successful first try, with much appreciation to Hooi Lie who did most of the jobs. ^^ Everyone was so crazy with the music and dance, AND food too!!

All in all, it was a hectic week and consequently, I didn't study. =(

Of Cycling and Beach

I could never imagine myself cycling to the beach and yet, it happened. Admittedly, I didn't cycle for at least five years and the height of the bicycle had always scare me away when I thought of cycling. I thought it would be interesting to cycle to the beach and yes, IT IS. =P

It was cold and windy this morning. I was not used to the bicycle when we started our journey but luckily, I somehow managed to cycle without any fear after a while. Need not to mention, the scenery along the journey was AWESOME! River, grassland, all kinds of trees and flowers had brought me close to the friendly nature that I missed in the city. Haha... And of course, Adelaide has got well-built cycling pathways.

The climax of the day, however was at the beach. If you ask me which one do I prefer, Henley or Glenelg, my answer will definitely be HENLEY!! Haha... We had LOTS of fun at the beach eating, playing, running and screaming. Nonetheless, we took MANY photos too! Besides, WE "built" a turtle from sand (which was initially planned to be a castle)!! Haha...

I am really tired after approximately 3 hours of cycling BUT it was an enjoyable trip - the BEST trip I ever had.

Bye COMM!

So everyone, I'm here to announce that I had DONE my presentation!! And yes, it marks the end of Communication In Health for this semester!! Woohooo!!!

"Should pharmacists have limited prescribing rights?"

Well, I have been puzzled for a very long time before I started my essay. From finding information to writing the essay and presenting my topic, I learned a lot. To be honest, I wasn't sure of diagnosis, prescribing and dispensing until I wrote this essay. At least I learned something right? Haha...

I always have trouble in presentation though. I tend to get very very nervous, with cold hands and trembling voice at the beginning of a presentation. BUT, I somehow managed to overcome this problem bit by bit. At least I wasn't as nervous as I used to be this time. However... I will certainly forget some information while presenting and I think I was talking rather slow. Hmm, I think I should really start to speak English.

It had been a busy week. Really busy busy, with academic and non-academic stuffs. Hmm, have nothing much to update lately anyway. Till then, see ya!

我很傻

我好幼稚
我真的很幼稚、很幼稚很幼稚......
好恨这样的自己
做assignment
读书吧
就是想把它忘掉
逃避有用吗？
我很想面对
不管别人说什么
我都要能真心地微笑以对

秋

Taken last week, on my way back from Chem lab.

This was also taken last week, one of the buildings of UniSA.

Taken this morning, somewhere in the compound of UniSA.

I was so excited to see the leaves turning red, hahaha...

On my way back after Bio tut, the sky was awesome!!

Yellow leaves...

不知不觉秋天快告一段落了，我也在澳洲渡过了生平中的第一个秋天。一直都很期待看到绿叶转红、枫叶飘落满地的情景，更想吹吹秋天的冷风。现在天气开始转凉了，我却不由自主地想念起夏天的温暖。人嘛，总是到了失去后才懂得珍惜...但有些东西我还是自私地想永远握紧。哦，我还是执著的...^^

Done With Prac

I'm too happy, I'm too excited,
I MUST announce this to everyone:

I'm DONE with Bio prac for this sem!!!
Hahaha...

Just to tell you how miserable I was at the prac just now. Although I learned about Mendel's Law like two three years ago and it shouldn't be any problem for me to arrange the karyotype and write a couple of sentences as explanation for the results I observed, I just screwed up the whole prac. Didn't really have mood for the last prac. OMG!

I was so sleepy and yes, it was the first time I used three hours to finish a prac. >.<

Anyway, I'm so glad that it's over now!!! HAHAHA...

Food Fair

It is not my handwriting, I don't have ink and brush here. ^^ In fact, it was written by a girl named 何晴晴 from Zhulin Temple. *A very significant word when it comes with 随缘*

A very eventful Sunday I had this week - a visit to Zhulin Temple's fund raising food fair. There were soooo many food there, and most of them were those familiar food from Malaysia!!! CURRY MEE, curry puff, char koay kak, herbal soup noodles, ham chi peng, spring roll etc. etc. really made me lost control!! Also, there was tiramisu baked by pure Italian!!! It was yummy yummy and trust me, it was comparable to Secret's tiramisu!! Ahhh, it reminds me of Secret' cakes... Choc Indulgence, choc mud cake, oreo cheese, mango delight, choc banana, black forest, choc fudge, choc cheese, brownies, oops... I can't wait to go back to Malaysia!!! Haha...

Time flies, it's the end of the week again. Hah... Before I can welcome the arrival of Monday I seriously need to finish my Bio pre prac and Chem tut!!

Smiles

Had a really really busy + hectic week loaded with test, tutorials and things-for-me-to-waste-time. Can't help it though. I started to admire myself for I can always find some time to be wasted everyday. Doing nothing on Friday isn't something new anymore.

Woke up neither too early nor too late, just nice. Then, I tried to look through some tutorial questions while eating breakfast before sitting for the Chem test. The test, argh!! I promised myself that I won't mention anything about it anymore. Don't think I will do well anyway. Haha... After the test, it was time to reward myself AGAIN. I did some shopping yesterday, and today as well. The net gain of the two-days-shopping spree are two cardigans, two jumpers, one scarf, one jenny opaque tights and two beanies. After much consideration, I decided not to add them into this month's expenditure. I know that I'm not honest to myself!! Arghhh... I just couldn't resist the 30% off temptation in Deborah K! I guess it was the first time I allowed myself to shop till I drop in Adelaide.

I attended a mourning ceremony for the earthquake victims in Sichuan at Victoria Square in the evening. It was very very cold as I only wore a pair of slipper and my sweater wasn't thick enough to keep me warm. I learned my lesson: don't ever play with the weather and don't forget to wear thicker clothes at night. Back to the ceremony, the scene was sorrowful. The pain experienced by the family members of the victims is really undescribable. I can do nothing but to pray for them, hoping that the deceased will rest in peace while the survived can have a brighter tomorrow. Let bygones be bygones and cherish every moment we have now. Life is short, but we can make a difference by living every second with gratitude and try our best to do good for the people around us. =)

=)=) Let's hope for a better tomorrow for everyone... =)=)

Biology is NOT dead!

We often hear people talking about how tedious Biology is, and how difficult it is to memorise the terms and to understand the complex biological processes in our body. Therefore, it is not surprising that many people will assume Biology to be a "dead" science.

No doubt, Biology is hard when it comes to memorising facts for the sake of exams. But, Biology is FUN, particularly in tiny stuffs like altering a base to get a completely new protein! Protein synthesis is not just about transcription and translation but a lot more, a bigger picture of it. Well, I may be lagged in this but I just realised that a DNA molecule can act as template for synthesis of more than one type of protein and yeah, it amused me! Haha... In addition to that, the addition of an O atom to deoxyribose can significantly change the whole molecule's stability. Oops, this may be a little towards understanding of chemistry. Haha, how wonderful life is with the combination of Biology and Chemistry working in harmony. If ever they ain't, you should be worried. =P

Anyway, fun and exams are not correlating. I still get frustrated when I couldn't finish revising for the exams or when there are never-ending tutorials and assignments to be completed as the due dates are drawing near.

PS: I had done my essay!!! This is such a goooood news!!! Haha... (putting aside concern about the quality of work that I produced though...) Perhaps little refinement here and there is necessary before I can hand in my essay... ^^

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It had been a busy week,
and I know that
it's going to be another busy week ahead,
again, and again.
Sometimes I'm greedy,
I wish for a longer day;
a day with 24+1 hour
so that I can laugh out loud
sing with all of my heart
and do whatever I feel like doing.
I want to shop for some winter clothes
I wish for two things: time and cash

Completely indulged in the world of Muesli Bars,
of chocolate chips, strawberry and yoghurt...
Pancakes look tempting,
chocolates are irresistible,
cakes are my loved ones,
even breads can activate my salivary gland.
Food oh food...

Had been wondering round and round for an answer,
for confidence
for faith
for trust
for everything worthwhile.

I need to stop now,
I need to start doing my essay.
Go Go Go!!

Blog as I don't want to start writing the essay yet; the heavier the workload I have, the more I feel like engaging in wasting-time-activities.

Endless Tasks

After much anticipation, this week is finally over, giving an end to Biology test and COMM presentation. Being too excited to welcome the weekend, I wasted the whole night doing nothing.

Thankfully, I attended Friday Dharma Class at City East Campus and the topic discussed was "Showing Compassion and Loving Kindness with Wisdom". Somehow, the topic sounded interesting and meaningful. For people who attempt to start practising compassion, he should direct it firstly to himself. He should also avoid directing compassion to the one that he loves or he hates and members of the opposite sex. =) I suppose the reason for it needs no further explanation. Conclusively, it's a long way to practise compassion and loving kindness; starting from oneself, and then to people that you respect, your friends (by treating everyone as your good friend), your enemies (by treating them as your friend), mankind and eventually, all living organisms in this world.

Moving on, the concept behind practising compassion and loving kindness with wisdom is to be reasonable, ie to to take into consideration the situation and the person whom you direct your compassion and loving kindness to. However, each situation varies and there is no explicit right or wrong for each decision made.

I guess this is the only beneficial thing I did yesterday apart from attending lectures in the morning. Haha...

*Needs to prepare for Chem test next week*Time to start my essay*Math assignment*Must pronounce "three", "the" and all the "th-s" correctly*
Hopefully, I will be able to complete all these tasks. ~Cheers~

我不是温小花

不要因为我的手指稍微细长就暗自下决定说我是温小花，
不要因为我看起来像就说我是，
虽然我不怎么会煮饭烧菜，但至少基本的我都会...
我会很感激你的...

我...真的是无话可说！
太多太多事情闷在心里难以启齿，
真是感慨万分...
啊，别想了！！！

一大早起来突然有股力量和冲劲
想改变自己
不要再当从前的我
走出黑暗的影子
活出自己！

最后，我想趁今天献上我深深的祝福：母亲节快乐！
没办法给你最好的，也无法陪在你身边，但是在远远的角落，有一个人，她永远都不会忘记母爱的伟大。因为她知道，母亲终是把最好的留给她，就算全世界都反对，母亲还是会支持她...在最坏的时刻，母亲还是想办法把对她的伤害减低...当母亲知道她的心愿时，会想尽办法帮她实现...从小到大，母亲无微不至地照顾她，细心地教导她，陪她渡过生命中的每一天,陪她哭、陪她笑...
她也曾经叛逆过，曾经觉得母亲老了，有代沟，沟通不了了。多年后的今天，她想起时才发现原来是自己不够成熟...
她的母亲在别人眼中虽然是一个很平凡的人，但是在她心里，母亲永远都是最棒的！妈妈，我爱你...

Morialta Conservation Park

Despite having tests around the corner, I joined the hiking trip organised by MySA to Morialta Conservation Park. I have no idea why Morialta was choosen out of the 300 parks and reserves in South Australia; however, I am glad that it turned out to be an interesting experience for most of us.

Briefly, I visited a few spots at the park before having barbeque at an expansive grassland near the entrance to the park. There were three waterfalls in the park, namely First Falls, Second Falls and Third Falls. Simple right? Haha... Also, there was "Giant Cave", although I personally think that the cave wasn't giant. Nonetheless, we took the longest walking trails throught almost every part of the park and it took us approximately 4 hours! (It was written there that four hours were needed but I didn't really check the time.)

Too tired to proceed anymore. My eyes are closing and my brain is in sleeping mode now... Good night!

Three Dots

Dot one:
After whispering to herself asking why her contact lens case was so dirty, she wore the pair of lenses only to realise that it was her OLD pair of lenses. *Speechless*

Dot two:
Wondering which building was her COMM tutorial room, being lazy not to check earlier, she followed Chuen Lu and Zhi Hui to Playford building but in fact, the tutorial room was at Centenary building. *What?!*

Dot three:
She had her lunch at international student room at Playford building. Opposite her table was another group of students having lunch, one of them having a whole loaf of Woolies white bread while another one having a bottle of something. She thought they looked funny but she suppressed her laughter. At first, she assumed that the bottle was pasta spread which was to be used together with the loaf of bread, normal right? Hmm, okay... Suddenly, she saw one of them poured the bottle containing red liquid into his mouth. OMG!! The guy drank pasta spread!!! What was happening??? Then, another guy took the bottle and did the same thing. This time, she couldn't help but said in a loud-enough-to-be heard voice, "Hey, they drank pasta spread! Hahaha..." One of them stared at her. Guilty, she looked away. Later, she found out that it was not pasta spread but tomato juice. *Apalah, who is the fool this time???*

Give Me A Test

Give me a test
Put it on the web
Passing it around
Telling me some more.

Give me some notes
Put it on the web
Just wanna make me feel guilty
Like I never did.

Touch the keyboard
Click on the homepage
Direct me to you
Oh my Biology.

Come on babe
Know you love me much
Come on and give me moment of peace!

I Thought I Had Enough Sleep

BUT...
I felt sleepy during Biology tut just now.
I can hardly keep my eyes open during the tut.
I can't wait for that miserable one hour to pass.

NOW...
I have sore throat.
I have slight headache.
I just don't feel well...

What is going on???

I Don't Know Why, I'm Just Tired...

Lesson I learned today: Never ever arrange your timetable with Biology lab in the morning, and with classes coming after it.

Reason: Biology lab is tooo tiring...


As usual, the week started off with Biology lab on Monday morning. The very first shock our dearest demonstrator gave us was: Ehem, all prac workbooks have to be in this box (pointing at a box in his hand) at the end of this practical or you will get ZERO!! OMG!!! What?! Rewinding back to yesterday night: I was, I was... Well, practically copied everything from Campbell without actually understanding it!!! As a result, I didn't really know what I was writing... Arghh, no way!!! Luckily, this week's task wasn't hard, just a few slides to view under microscope and to prepare onion root tip to observe stages of mitosis. Eventually, I'm glad to say that I finished everything within the 3 hours given. Haha... BUT, I was so tired that I can hardly concentrate during Bioloy lecture (excuse huh...). =P

Refusing to give up my day so early, I went to the library to do some references for my essay. Quite satisfying after wasting some money photocopying. (So ironic...) Anyway, the weather just now was nice! Moderately cold wind does blow away half of my tiredness. Haha...

PS: Drosophila's chromosomes are gigantic!!! =)

有感而发

每件事情的发生和因果息息相关，就好像自己品尝自己所种的果实。（You reap what you sow）所以发生任何不愉快的事情时，无需太执着，应该以平常心去接受。开心或不开心只是个人的想法，因为“镜缘无好丑，好丑在於心”（蕅益大師）。把世上的一切事物都想象得美好，就不会有“丑”，心也自然辽阔了许多。反之，把每件事情都想得很糟糕，就好像把自己推入痛苦的深渊，自寻烦恼。

“我們要做到純淨純善，一定要知道從自己內心裡面做功夫。佛法稱為內學，時時刻刻照顧自己，不要去看別人，要消除內心裡面的矛盾，你的心才會得清淨。”（佛陀教育雜誌 Vol. 259）

当然，做任何事情，那颗“真心”最重要。坦诚相对就是以一颗坦然、诚实的心去对待每一个人和做每一件事情，不带一丝妄想、分別和执着。当你想到要帮助一个人的时候，脑海里第一个想的就是要帮助他，没有其他的念头，方是真心性德的流露。

我很清楚地明白，自己只是个普通人，距离纯净纯善还有好一大段的距离。面对每一件事情和人都会在心里自行判断喜欢与否，偶尔还是会有怨言和不高兴。但至少我们可以做到的是真心地去对待每一个人...

PS：别误会，我知道自己没那么好。=)

Bid Goodbye To Holidays

When the clock ticked at 12am yesterday, it marks the end of my enjoyable holidays. On a whole, I did nothing much during the holidays except wasting time. (Definition of wasting time: Online when I shouldn't, facebooking when I was supposed to search for info, MSN when it was time to study, napping in the afternoon, waking up late as a result of sleeping late)

The second part of this semester began (sound effect: clapping hands): Mundane routines to be followed every week, ie. lectures, tutorials and practicals. -.-

The new Biology lecturer is (wow, too good to be true!) BORING!!! Slides adapted from Campbell, pictures from Campbell, reading at a monotonous voice etc. etc. which definitely makes a perfect lullaby for half of the students. (While another half consists of good students who never sleep in class, haha...) As for me, I'm one of the members of "bad student category". Sad to say, please accept my deepest apology...

My first determination: To sleep early and wake up early
My second determination: Study more
My third determination: Learn to cook more things (Okay, I sounded funny when I suddenly called my mum and asked, "how to cook this ah?")
My fourth determination: To complain less

原来

今天突然心血来潮想炒饭，所以...我炒饭啦！哈哈...

不过...

原来炒饭不容易...

好冷...

这是我驻步Adelaide以来最冷的一次，
一起身就感觉到一股冷风袭上心头。
不是说Adelaide没那么冷的吗？
七度哦，我还以为那是冬天才可能出现的数字；
怎么秋天就迫不及待出现了呢？
看来穿着手套、围巾的日子又来了。
突然好想喝一碗热腾腾的汤，哈哈...
到底什么时候我才能战胜冷冽的寒风，
勇敢地穿短裤走在街上？？
哈哈...

Because It's So Cold

I need to EAT more!!! Hahaha...

Wasting Time

Read on, only if you want to waste your time listening to my craps.

You may expect to see this kind of post when she runs into emptiness as a result of boredom. Instead of staring into the ceiling in a light-deficient state, she decided to surf the world of mystery with interest. Lately, she was exposed to or came across by chance, too many sad stories drawing her nearer and nearer to the conclusion that happiness is equals to impending gloom. (Josephine 2008) Meanwhile, pieces of memories came into her mind, none was exempted.

She realised that as people get to know each other better, they tend to expect more and hence, becoming more demanding. The effect is disastrous when more weaknesses are revealed. Realising the fact that no one is perfect in this world, she still holds on to the belief that she will be able to accept everything thrown to her. She once thought that she can...

Two weeks ago, she was so excited about the holidays; two weeks later, she found herself unwilling to return to the reality. She gains a lot of fat since two months ago as snacking uncontrollably has shown its effect finally. She used to do that when she becomes tensed or stressed. Obviously, she is. Tired of facing the mundane routine she is forced to adhere to, needing badly someone to talk to when she's feeling emo, being enclosed in a small space for such a long time, she desperately needs some fresh air.

Being here, laptop is her life. Although there is internet to link her with the world outside, she still enjoys the moment of silence and peacefulness; no murmur, no whisper, only the sound of the gusting wind outside. May the wind carries away the morning blue in her, cheers!

Te Ying is...

1. Frustrated

2. Pening

3. Feeling stupid

In conclusion, Te Ying is LOST...

Wine Discovery

"If you only ever do one wine trail in Australia you have to make it South Australia's Barossa ... It is quintessential Australia where fine wine mixes with historical ambience, stunning cuisine and friendly laid back Australian hospitality." (Wine New Zealand magazine)

As you can see from above, South Australian is famous for its wine. Personally I'm not a wine lover but this is definitely a chance not to be missed if you are in South Australia --- pay a visit to Barossa Valley!!! Now only I realised that there are actually so many types of wines, Shiraz (I remember this very well as the smell is very very strong), Merlot (which I think is the second strongest after Shiraz)... I couldn't remember their names. I'm not into red wine, I prefer white wines. =)

Barossa wine region comprises of the Barossa Valley and Eden Valley and it is home to some of the oldest Shiraz vineyards in the world. Most interestingly, Barossa heritage vines are free from phylloxera. In fact, all South Australian vines are free from phylloxera!! (I remember the tour guide stressed that many times, I think he is proud of the vines, haha...) Overally, the trip was fantastic except for the winding roads which made almost everyone of us nauseous.

The Barossa trip was an "experience" trip, which was meant for wine dummies like us (there were altogether 15 of us), or perhaps it should be called a wine discovery trip. =P Our first stop was The Big Rocking Horse, which is the biggest rocking horse in the world. There, we visited a toy factory and a small wildlife park. (I'm not sure if it is anyway) Being soooo close to kangaroos, wallabies, ostrich, sheep, peacock etc. made me really excited!!!

After visiting Angas Park Dried Fruits, we started our very first wine tasting adventure at Wolf Blass Winery. I can see several expressions while tasting wines:
"Ewww!!!"
"Wow..."
"Hmm.... Okay lah..."
As for me, the most frequent expression I had was "Eww!!!".

After having our scrumptious lunch at Nuriootpa Vine Inn, we continued our adventure at Vinecrest Winery, Barossa Vines and Kies Family Wines. The second winery was almost the same as the first one, being more commercialised and crowded with visitors. The third one was the place I bought a bottle of wine while the fourth one was a smaller winery, stylishly and traditionally furnished.

Before ending our trip, we visited The whispering Wall, which showed us how wonderful an architecture can be. By whispering at one end of the dam, the one standing at the other end can actually hear what you are saying CLEARLY. Amazing right? So yeah, this was our last stop in the trip.

Some random facts I learned during the wine discovery trip:

To differentiate between vines, vineyard and wines. Haha... (Sorry to say that I barely know about vines, vineyard and wines before this trip.)

South Australia being the driest state in Australia. (I knew that it's dry but I didn't expect it to be the driest.)

There aren't only one type of wine but a variety of them!

Snakes are the major threat to visitors in vineyard.

Vines are harvested by autumn.

A number of people are allergic to alcohol.

AND

most importantly, I was not drunk drinking wines!!! Hahaha...

Out Of Nothing

Woke up late AGAIN today,

checked the time, oops 9.30am!!

Thinking, "never mind lah, holiday what..."

Kicked off the day with plain white bread and hot Milo.

Turned on my laptop and I was officially glued to the chair.

Daydreamed until 11.00am before realising that I haven't wash my presoaked clothes,

RUSH!!!

I never knew that the cleaner is coming today...

Praying while trying hard to wash them as fast as I could,

Phew!! Finally I managed to settle everything before they came.

Oh yeah, how about lunch??

I thought I had say, 10 minutes before the cleaner came.

Sandwich? Ahhh, suddenly remembered that I had some spirals left in the fridge!

Haha, luckily...

Spent the next few minutes heating up the spirals and yep, it was my lunch.

30 minutes, yeah, you're right, the cleaner spent 30 minutes only to clean the kitchen and bathroom! FANTASTIC!!!

Next, STUDY!!!

PS: Don't like the feeling of being left out, don't like not being told of something that's happening out there... This was what I meant yesterday. If you don't understand this, never mind... Coz it's not meant for you to understand. =P (It's for me to understand and not for you to find out though, if you haven't already understood.) Never mind though, if no one understands... *am a little disappointed*

Felt really happy that finally there's someone who can read my mind, haha... Hmm, again, you may not understand this, I think no one will anyway.

Happy Holiday Everyone!

Finally, after much struggles, I booked my air ticket back to Penang!!! Haha... But guess what? I need to wait at Darwin Airport for 17 hours before catching a connecting flight from Darwin to Singapore!! AND after that, it's another 8 hours and 30 minutes long wait before the next flight from Johor Bahru to Penang. This happens when you want to get the lowest fare and the LOWEST fare costs you approximately AUD448! *Sad*I want my money back!!*But nothing is more important than going home right?*Haha...*

Another good news from me: After finishing Chem lecture this morning at 12.00pm, my holiday OFFICIALLY starts!!! For a moment, I need to completely forget about tutorials, assignments and practically everything! Hahaha... Please note that it's just for a moment, sigh! I think I need to come up with a schedule so that I am able to finish everything on time, besides allocating some time for FUN!

I don't like Math, I'm getting tired of doing Math assignments when the equations are so complicated that I don't even know where to start. Sigh... I need some cod liver oil perhaps? Next question, when to and what to write for my 1000 words essay? There are just so many to be done in this two weeks. Anyway, I hope that I can find a balance between assignments and rest. Holiday wor, must enjoy right?

First Time

This is the FIRST time I cooked a dish. (Previously pasta is not counted, haha...)

Arlooo, I know I'm lame... Let me syiok sendiri a while ok... Haha...

Plain Happiness

Please bear with me, I'm getting a little too excited!! Haha... I know this is not much, I finished my Bio practical report finally!! ~Phew~ I guess the next on my list should be Math assignment. Honestly, I am getting frustrated with Calculus. Sometimes, I don't know what Dr. Julia is drawing on the board and oh yeah, I tend to daydream half way through her lecture. I know this is bad. I know this is not what a student is supposed to do. But can't help it lahhh, I just don't understand...

These days, I have the tendency to stay awake until midnight. Haha, this is just so different, unlike in Akasia where I used to sleep before the clock ticks at 12.00am. Sometimes may miss Akasia a little bit huh, haha...

And lastly, there is no reason for the title of this post. Haha... Smile whenever you feel like to, laugh with all your heart, be happy for it's worth to cherish, let sadness fades away as instant as it comes... (It may take time but be sure to forget about it the next morning you wake up!) This is what we called plain happiness... As simple as it sounded like, why can't we do that?

I Know I'm Complaining

Procrastinating takes me to no where, and the to-do(s) list in my diary is getting longer and longer as the due dates are drawing closer and closer. I'm tired...

*With much respect to Josephine deBlur, I'm linking your post here. <http://josephineng.wordpress.com/2008/04/04/the-yes-no-and-definitely-not-of-my-future-boyfriend/> Haha, don't get too excited though.*

"ME"

Apparently, this is my 100th post. Read on but mind you, it has nothing special, nothing interesting and nothing other than normal. In this post, I would like to introduce my readers to someone called "ME".

Memories of ME of her first five years on this earth were vague. However, she strongly believed that they were the good ones and of course, the best ones she ever had. As young as she was, she had no worries as she couldn't understand the word "bad". She would smile to stranger and be pleased with just one tiny little sweet. But of course, there were times when she cried. She cried when she was hungry, or when her parents refused to buy her the barbie doll she liked. Smiles were easily seen on her face and sorrows faded away as fast as they came.

As she grew up, she learned how to talk. She could babble about anything under the sun that she came across. Although sometimes adults may not understand what she was talking about, they would give her a very warm-hearted smile. From toddling to walking, she encountered endless times of failure. Countless encouragement and support she had until eventually she can walk, run and jump wihout any difficulties. “喂喂 不要怕 你是好娃娃 自己跌倒自己爬...”,熟悉的音乐犹然飘荡在耳际，相信它也曾经是你童年的一部分吧！

Fighting - This is the most common similarity between siblings. ME also fighted with her brother, for toys especially. She is pleased to tell that most of the time, she was the winner. Haha, but not now though. Ain't it's true that sister used to bully brother?

As she reached schooling age, she was sent to a nearby kindergarten. She was a very shy girl and she seldom talked in the class. She only mingled with a group of close friends. Some may say that she was cool. As time past by, she finished kindergarten, primary and secondary school. Little did she know that it was almost time to leave her family and friends behind to pursue her so called dreams. There was no time for a rest, nor was there time for her to consider. Just go for it, this was what she thought.

Ten years back, she would not be able to imagine herself in this place, no matter how wild her mind could be, or how crazy her thought could go. Just let it be, haha...

Cheers!

The 99th Post

Guess what?? It HAILED in Adelaide!!! Haha, witnessing small ice cubes pouring down as "rain" is something new for me. I nearly (note that it's just NEARLY) run out in joy. I felt like telling everyone: "Hey, it hails!!!" Everyone was so excited!! There was one thing that my friends didn't realise: When we were getting too excited about the hail, an old woman sitting at the bus stop opposite UV watched and smiled at us. She must be thinking that we were a group of "38" students. Haha... Too bad the ice cubes couldn't last long as it melted quickly. Come to think of it, it was so random that I went out to buy bread, escaped the rain and yep, it hailed!!!

A moment to ponder: Hail doesn't show any good sign anyway. Obviously, it's the result of global warming. Save our earth!!!

Besides that, Adelaide also opens my perspective on what we called "wind". When the weather forecast tells you that it's going to be windy tomorrow, you better BELIEVE it and wear more layers of clothes! Haha... Seriously, the wind is very STRONG. At some point, I thought it will blow me away, haha... I know it's silly anyway.

I had chicken curry as dinner today. Haha... Finally my crave for curry is being fulfilled!!

PS: This is the 99th post, haha... I'm anticipating the 100th post of my blog! =)

Don't Understand

A little bit about complaints, I want to say that I.... don't know what I was copying!! Sigh, I don't care what limit it is as x approaches zero, I don't care f(x=c) or whatever it is, COZ I don't understand LAH!! Finally, I'm done with Math assignment, although I haven't fully understand what I was doing. (Next on the list: Silberberg and Campbell for the coming class test next week, though I'm more interested in what movie to watch next...)

Tagged

1. At what age do you wish to marry?--
Between 26 and 30.

What will you do when you feel really emo?--
Listen to songs that best fit my mood, write a private diary.

3. Who is your idol?--
It can be anybody, as long as he/ she is respectable.

4.Where is the place that you want to go most?--
Every corner of the world, haha...

5.If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?--
I can have dreams come true.

6. What is the purpose of your life?--
To have a better life after this life! (This is just nice, I like this answer.)

7.What are you afraid to lose the most right now?--
Those who care for me.

8. What cheers you up for the rest of the day?--
Today you mean? Well, the fact that tomorrow is SATURDAY!! Haha...

9.If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?--
I will wait for him to confess first, haha...

10.List out three good things of the person who tagged you.--
Yi Hong is caring, helpful and funny. =P

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?--
Resposible, trustworthy, caring, diligent and the list goes on.

12.What type of person do you hate the most?--
Irresponsible person.

13.What would you do if you won a million dollars?--
Half for those in need, quarter for my family and quarter for myself. =)

14.What is your ambition?--
Live life =)=)=)!!

15.What will you do if you got rejected by someone you like?--
I think it will never happen to me coz I won't confess first. Haha...

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?--
Forgetfulness, when it comes to names and directions.

17. What is your favourite colour?--
Light colours.

18.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?--
Family

19. If there’s one thing in your life you want to do but yet unable to, what would it be?--
Change my life.

20. What would you do if tomorrow was the last day of the world?--
Live like there is no tomorrow!

Eight people that I wanna tag is..
KN, KH, Xin Jo, three only. Haha...