Be Myself

I need to buckle up. For there are so much to do, yet so little time I have. There's a need to put a halt to online, daydreaming and wasting time. I used to like weekends, but not when you have an assignment without a clear stand , not when Campbell is solidly being placed on your table, and not when tutorials are being posted on the course information homepage.

I wonder when,
can I indulge myself in mesmerizing music?
can I walk down Rundle Mall Street wihout any rush?
can I stop by and enjoy the scenery beside me?
can I attend a lecture without feeling sleepy?
can I be MYSELF?

I don't want to feel guilty when I see my housemates studying while I am listening to music.
I want to move on at my own pace but not blindly following the others.
I want to believe in myself.
I don't want to study a book because someone else studies.
I want to do something because I enjoy it.

I want to know,

are these going to work well for me like it used to be?
am I the odd ones out?

It doesn't matter though, we are who we are. No two individuals are the same on this earth. Different people have different perceptions. I'm the slow one, but it does not mean that I'm ignorant. I'm learning hard to cope with, to stand up and to survive in this mean world. Nothing happends though, no worries mate. It's just another random thought of mine. I'm eccentric.

Nervous I'm, I desperately want to know my A Levels result!! Does it really matter how many points I get? What will I think if it doesn't turn out to be good one for me? How will it be?