Exams

One down, three more to go.
And yes, you are right. I am having exams.

Good luck guys. ^^

Bittersweet

I used to have dreams
and when they are achieved
I am delighted
and when they fail
I am grief-stricken

Life
is like a dish
a little sugary
coupled with a dash of vinegar
Sweet and sour alike

Finding the equilibrium point in life
is not as easy as solving a differential equation
There is no absolute answer to a question
neither alpha nor beta
for it is not a mathematical problem

Standing in between both extreme ends
figuring out the critical point
I'm searching for stability
looking out for the best for myself
Being aware of the naiveness in "me"
I strive to be wise
in dealing with people around me
although at some point
I realise that I'm ignorant

Doomed in the shade of darkness
I'm working hard
to find the source of light
It seems to be an impossible task
after years of wondering

Never did I realise that
the source of light is actually myself
Generating my own light
and radiating the heat
makes me grow and glow
I may not be a bright spark
but I will be a perpetuating candle
calm and warm

The wind can extinguish my light
but I have no fear
for the light can be revived
What life is for
if there are no pitfalls?

Success is defined
for there is failure
The rainbow can only be seen
after a downpour
We learn how to walk
from falls
We cherish sunshine more
after three month of winter

And I
appreciate life
for what it brings to me.

缘

记得中四老师曾经说过“缘”字的奇妙。当时他解释得相当清楚整个字的结构，好想从我那非常有限的记忆碎片中搜索，只可惜...还是不果。
基于无聊，随意在键盘上打了“缘”字，想看看是否能找到当年的解释。造字法的详细解释是没有，但却无意间发现一个不错的说法：

于千万人之中遇见你所遇见的人
于千万年之中，
时间的无涯的荒野里，
没有早一步，
也没有晚一步，
刚巧赶上了，
这就是缘分。
----红枫

释缘

问世间“缘”为何物？真叫人不好捉摸，因为无法诠释人与人相遇、相知、相交的底蕴和玄机，人们便认同并沿袭了禅语中拈出的那个字--缘

惜缘

在亿万年前的时光长河中相逢于今生今世；在芸芸众生的红尘人海中际会于此地此处，无论男女长幼，无论贫富美丑，这段尘缘足堪珍惜。

情缘

缘是天意，也关人情，盖因有情而后结缘，或有缘而后生情倘若无情，谈何有缘？即使有缘亦是孽缘。

随缘

人们常说随缘，但随缘不应是等缘。“有愿才会有缘，如果无愿即使有缘人也会成擦身而过。”极具禅心慧思的台湾作家林清玄如是说。

信缘 有这样一种朋友，也许相隔千山万水，也许分隔十年八载，世事变幻，沧海桑田，永远不变的是彼此心中的那份默契与牵挂。所以我相信，两缘若是久长时，又岂在朝朝暮暮。

悟缘

耳闻目睹曾经恩爱的夫妻因小事反目，曾经共同创业的朋友因为绳利成仇，颇感费解。思之再三，似有所悟：一切美好的姻缘都有三个支点方能长久-重情、守义、惜缘。

类缘

“有缘千里来相会”--这是空间上的缘。为什么数百年前，上千年前某人的思想、情怀、感悟会与我如此相似？为什么不曾谋面、不曾晤谈，心中竟是如此亲切，又是这样的喜欢？为什么月光像她的凝视，清风像她的呼吸？心有灵犀，千年相通--这是时间上的缘。

了缘

说不尽的缘，道不破的缘，了不断的缘，是缘，非缘，有缘，无缘，缘深，缘浅，缘起，缘灭。有人灰情灭欲，斩断情缘；有人藕断丝连，再续前缘；良缘变孽，仇缘变情缘。一面之缘与一生之缘或许在一念之间，或是情在缘已尽，或是缘在情已绝。。。。。这红尘中的是是非非，恩怨情仇，又怎是一个“缘”字了得！？

Randomness

Finally, I bought the FROGGY pyjamas I wanted to buy since a month ago!! Haha... Before that, don't put in too much hope because it's none other than normal pyjamas. BUT, it's reasonably priced and of acceptable quality.

So far I did not spend my study break wisely. Day 01 was spent outside: Friday after class outings and central market day. Day 02 was spent at the library. Haha, this sounds decent. Day 03 was spent... *Feel guilty about that*But okay la, one day only right?* Part of Day 04 was spent at Rundle Mall and part at UV, with books. Day 05, ie today, was spent at Rundle Mall, shopping. Well, our first intention was to pay our rent but it turned out to be a shopping trip. And yes, I bought stuffs. =P

Anyway, Cotton On was funny. I bought a five dollar skirt and the receipt was as long as though I bought 10 items. There isn't any wrong to print their refund policy in the receipt but hey, it was a sale item, which means that it is not exchangeable, I just don't understand why they did that. =S

And lastly, I couldn't help but to say thank you. Thank you for everything, thank you for turning up, giving me little surprises when I was down.

无题

第四年了......
@@@快乐......

Second Call

I was happily online yesterday when I saw my mum signed in MSN.
THEN, I was told that NS sent me a letter...
Funny enough, the letter was dated 15 May but it reached my home on 13 June. It took them almost one month to send the letter to me. T.T And I'm supposed to report at the camp on 16 June. Hahaha...
Instead of going to Langkawi, it's Balik Pulau this time, which is much closer to my house. And again, it's the same camp as KN's. Again and again, we are going to defer it. @@

A Story

This story was taken from an email. ^^

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger.

I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning.

I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears.

I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

NB*The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

Secret Revealed

An interesting last Chem lecture I had today. Haha... It wasn't about boring lecture but interactive tutorial questions!! By using a programme named "turning point" (I'm not sure of the name actually ^^), we had a massive revision. The questions were projected on the screen and we, ie. the students submitted our answers via a small rectangular gadget. Our answers will then be accepted by a receiver and the poll wil be displayed on the screen, together with the correct answer. Interesting right? Haha, I was trying to take a picture of the screen but due to my sitting position I couldn't possibly take a clear picture of the whole screen. =(

Guess what was the first question? Oops, I forgot to mention. Before that, sodium went missing in the first year lab and they were trying hard to locate the missing sodium. Finally, the sodium was found, and that was the first question:
Where was the missing sodium being found?
A. In Brian's lunchbox
B. In my pigeonhole
C. In H2-02
D. Something like dead duck in the river
E. I forgot... oOo
Haha... The choices available were funny.

Moving on, Dr. Sykes revealed the answer to a question MANY girls would like to know. So, the second question was: (teng teng teng teng!!) The year you were born in!!
Too bad he didn't give something like "what is your current status?" or "Am I married?"
XoXoXoX
Perhaps he doesn't want to hurt Zhi Hui. =P

That's all for today! My study break officially starts. *wink*

Random

Have been slacking for a few days,
poor concentration,
too much entertainment...
I can't possibly study with laptop on the table...
><

Have been thinking of a topic to blog nowadays,
but I'm running out of ideas...
Decided on something,
yet sometimes I question...
WHY?

I know I'm a doubtful person,
perhaps this is where the problem lies.
Shouldn't I be more open-minded,
and more confident?
+.+
Time will tell.

Celebrations

I just realised that I haven't been updating my blog as often as I did earlier this year. It's getting cold with winter just around the corner. Need not to mention, it feels even "cold" to be reminded that exam is coming. Anyway, I'm looking forward to the post-exam-holidays!!

After celebrating the triple birthday, we had a cycling trip to Henley Beach. *Sorry for the sequence, triple birthday celebration should come before cycling trip.* So yep, we celebrated Pei Pei, Jien and Amreet's birthday on Wednesday. We can see their surprise faces when cakes were taken out from the bedroom. Haha... Nonetheless, the surprise party was a succes and we had lots of fun although I had oral presentation on the next day. *A really special day*

On Monday, in conjunction with Queen's Birthday, Jien held a party at his apartment. *Another birthday celebration for himself. * The party was rather different from the previous ones as each "house" contributed a dish for the party. UV 1005 cooked lemon chicken and I'm proud to say that it was the FIRST to finish!! Haha... A successful first try, with much appreciation to Hooi Lie who did most of the jobs. ^^ Everyone was so crazy with the music and dance, AND food too!!

All in all, it was a hectic week and consequently, I didn't study. =(

Of Cycling and Beach

I could never imagine myself cycling to the beach and yet, it happened. Admittedly, I didn't cycle for at least five years and the height of the bicycle had always scare me away when I thought of cycling. I thought it would be interesting to cycle to the beach and yes, IT IS. =P

It was cold and windy this morning. I was not used to the bicycle when we started our journey but luckily, I somehow managed to cycle without any fear after a while. Need not to mention, the scenery along the journey was AWESOME! River, grassland, all kinds of trees and flowers had brought me close to the friendly nature that I missed in the city. Haha... And of course, Adelaide has got well-built cycling pathways.

The climax of the day, however was at the beach. If you ask me which one do I prefer, Henley or Glenelg, my answer will definitely be HENLEY!! Haha... We had LOTS of fun at the beach eating, playing, running and screaming. Nonetheless, we took MANY photos too! Besides, WE "built" a turtle from sand (which was initially planned to be a castle)!! Haha...

I am really tired after approximately 3 hours of cycling BUT it was an enjoyable trip - the BEST trip I ever had.

Bye COMM!

So everyone, I'm here to announce that I had DONE my presentation!! And yes, it marks the end of Communication In Health for this semester!! Woohooo!!!

"Should pharmacists have limited prescribing rights?"

Well, I have been puzzled for a very long time before I started my essay. From finding information to writing the essay and presenting my topic, I learned a lot. To be honest, I wasn't sure of diagnosis, prescribing and dispensing until I wrote this essay. At least I learned something right? Haha...

I always have trouble in presentation though. I tend to get very very nervous, with cold hands and trembling voice at the beginning of a presentation. BUT, I somehow managed to overcome this problem bit by bit. At least I wasn't as nervous as I used to be this time. However... I will certainly forget some information while presenting and I think I was talking rather slow. Hmm, I think I should really start to speak English.

It had been a busy week. Really busy busy, with academic and non-academic stuffs. Hmm, have nothing much to update lately anyway. Till then, see ya!